i've succumb to the wonders of blogging, because i've been really bored the past few days. i guess staying home the past few days have been actually detrimental to my emotional state. with my grandma's recent passing, i've only had more and more time to grieve and reflect on the life of someone so dear to my heart. yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life...seeing nanay being buried is something that's still in my mind. i guess i'm just venting on my thoughts...i guess it's really sunk in.
i remember all the times that you used to come over when tatay went to play ping-pong. i feel really lucky, because you always took care of me. i'm so glad that i had someone like you in my life. it really hurts to reminisce about the past, and seeing as you're living a life with God now, i just really miss you. it's been a day that everyone was waiting for, but when the day actually came, it still was a shock, and it still hurt. i can take solace in the fact that you are free from all your suffering, and that you are living a life of tranquility with our Lord. i'll pray every night just for the chance to see you again.
my hiatus from school the past week has really set me back at possibly the worst time of the year, but that being said, i'm not lacking any motivation whatever happens from here on end, it's all for nanay. the way i finish, the way i live life, it's all for nanay. you've taught me so much, not necessarily through your words, but with your presence and unconditional love. i love you so much nay, iingatan ka.
ps. i really appreciate you coming yesterday, i know you could've gone to reconn, but i'm really happy you decided to come. it was really fun, and if anything it's only cemeneted my feelings for you :$ it's kinda weird writing this mitch...haha but give me a break =)
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